You can never predict when inspiration will come; sometimes it can be decidedly inconvenient. Inspiration can come at strange hours. It can happen while in the middle of work at a menial soul crushing job. Your boss might get upset, even if you record just a short sketch or idea. It can also wake you up in the middle of the night when you desperately need to sleep. The urge to create is that strong. Inspiration can come in flood torrents or it can abandon you completely for months at a time. Currently I’ve been very busy dealing with more inspiration than I can properly handle. There just are not enough hours in the day! Because I do not have an art studio to work in, I have been devoting my time to my second love, writing.
Here is the conundrum. I am unemployed and desperately looking for work. I spend on average about 4 to 8 hours a day looking and applying for jobs. I also spend an average of 3-4 hours a day researching and writing, much of it for this blog. My family feels this time would be better spent looking for work. I whole heartedly understand their perspective, and I am aware of the inconvenience I am placing them in, but my family does not understand the inward drive and the necessity I and other artists feel for writing and creating art. Inspiration is comes when it comes, and it simply must be dealt with. I simply have to do it; it is a compulsion. Sometimes I feel like I will become physically ill and die if I do not deal with it, like a shark will die if it does not continue to swim. Just last night I woke up in the middle of the night and had to immediately write down some words, phrases, and ideas for future writings. I knew that if I did not write them down, my mind would not be at peace, and I would not fall back asleep.
Even in this wretched unemployment state I’ve found myself in, I simply must have my time to create art and write! Right now I am swimming in a sea of inspiration, and I have to do my best to record all my ideas for future use, as it is impossible to get it all done now. So much gets lost, forgotten, or neglected over time, but it is my duty to work on all the ideas that I can, and while they are still fresh, as you can never count on inspiration always being there for you. Would you believe that I have about 60 or more ideas sketched out for future blog posts! And about 3 or 4 are Christmas related, so there is a rush to get them out in a timely fashion before the 25th! I am working really hard, but I love it and wouldn’t’ have it any other way. I just wish my family could better understand the position I am in, not as someone who is unemployed, but as someone who is unemployed who is also an artist having to deal with sudden fits of inspiration!
Sometimes I get worried, for my own situation, of course, but also for the trouble I am putting my family through. Thankfully, I have my creativity to distract me right now. Working on and completing a creative task always puts me in a better mood and gives me a sense of satisfaction.